Buying Isn't Reading

An Essay (fragment) by Theoreo
for The Cave of Choirs

Copyright 1999 Theoreo


I keep buying books but I don't read anymore. Descriptions of wonderful, weighty, thoughtful books still intrigue and capture me, but the descriptive paragraph is about as much of the mental work as I can manage.

Maybe books are like clothes. If I haven't read them in five years, I'll consider selling them. I've never sold a book.

Where are those days that could pass unnoticed as I reveled in ideas, character, plot, technique, and sentiment? Where is that iron, unyielding discipline of the dedicated reader? Yes, even the most passionate reader has a discipline -- a capability of concentrating so wholly on the moment that the material being read becomes a part of the soul. Today, my mind plays with the ideas and fantasies my younger self absorbed.

I am become dilettante, slider through life, not really knowing whereof and wherefore.


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